Friday, September 19, 2014

Birthdays and GYRIG

This is something I don't generally talk about it, especially since I've moved to Arizona.

But as my birthday is coming up, I wanted to talk about what I want this year.
I usually don't ask for much in life except to meet One Direction in real life. But this is something thatyou, whoever might be reading this, might be able to help me with.

5 years ago today, September 19, 2009 my mom lost her battle with cancer after fighting it for 8 years.

And it doesn't seem possible that it was 5 years ago because I can remember every little detail as if it were yesterday.

As some of you may know, my birthday is September 21. I've never been one to celebrate my birthday or to make a big deal out of it because, well I don't have the best memories from past birthdays.

My mom was diagnosed with cancer late August in 2001. I remember I found out when I got home from school. It was the first high school football game of the season and I went with my best friend at the time, Abby and stayed with her that night.
I remember I had this purple pocket mirror with sparkles and a flower on it and it broke. I was so upset because that meant 7 years of bad luck....irony and foreshadowing.

The best gift I received for my 12th birthday was that she came home from the hospital.

Right before my 16th birthday, she had major surgery and I remember the best gift I received that year was that she survived. I'll always remember meeting Thomas Hogan before she went in for surgery. He was her anesthesiologist and he came out and talked to us about how he would be monitoring her life the whole time and would do everything he could to make sure she came out okay. That was when I knew I wanted to become an anesthesiologist.

Obviously that didn't pan out ... sales, medical doctor, same thing right?

And I'll always remember when the surgeon came in to tell us that everything went according to plan.
I was in a room with my dad, grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins. It was a terrifying happiness and that was all I wanted for my birthday that year.

Some of you might wonder why I keep posting this birthday song on Facebook. Well it was a song my mom came up with (she was very corny that way) and she sang it to me pretty much every day in the month of September up until my birthday.
I remember my dad was able to sing it with her one last time when it was one more week til Jenna's birthday, doo dah, doo dah.

 On my 20th birthday, me dad and Jared went to Davenport and ate at Red Robin which was one of my favorite places to go. It was the first time it was just the 3 of us as a family. After lunch, we went to he mall to look for a dress to wear for the funeral.
It was also the day they posted her obituary.

My gift for my 20th birthday was a Tiffany&Co necklace that I had wanted. I knew what it was before I opened it because I saw that Tiffany blue box on my dad's dresser. Apparently he didn't realize it was an iconic thing.

So now it's 2014 and I will be 25 years old and this is what I would like this year.

Please go to my fundraising page and make a donation to this year's Get Your Rear in Gear. This is a 5k race that promotes colon cancer awareness as well as prevention.
If you are wondering what your contribution will go to, here it is directly from the site:

Seventy-five percent of net proceeds received through our Get Your Rear in Gear races go back to local communities.  Other gifts support national programming, survivor and caregiver initiatives.

This is the 4th year my dad has hosted this event in Muscatine, Iowa. He has worked so hard to help raise funds for our community. The race is this Saturday, September 20.

The 2013 Get Your Rear In Gear event for $12,250 to Jim Hayes at Trinity-Unity Point.

It would mean the world to me and my family if you could make a small contribution for my birthday.

The support my family receives is unbelievable and I wish I could be there this year.

As always, thanks for reading and we'll see you again soon!


Sunday, June 15, 2014

My Fasha

Well I was thinking about how I haven't blogged in a very long time.

So Father's Day was the perfect excuse to write again.

I haven't quite decided how I wanted to go about writing this post. Do I want to be sentimental? Funny? Crude? I'm good at being all those things.

But there is a subject I wanted to touch on that I haven't really spoken about verbally and the reason why I have this blog is to express some feelings that are easier to write down than say out loud.

My dad is special.
(not like those gotcha day balloons you and mom gave me in 7th grade). 
My dad is not like anyone else. He's of a different species or something.

He doesn't come home and crack open a can of beer. He comes home after work and puts jeans on, not sweatpants. He remembers almost every detail of an event or every birthday of a family member. And he has the cleanest closet you'll ever see.

Much like my grandpa, he is "Mr. Friendly." He can strike up a conversation with almost anyone. Standing in the line at Wal-Mart, waiting at baggage claim, you know he's going to be talking to someone.
He will always go above and beyond for people he cares about and he doesn't think twice about it.
So when my dad was ready to start dating, I was afraid.

I feel as though it's only natural to think or wonder whether or not your parent will love someone new more than they loved your other. But that wasn't my concern.

My concern was that the women that met my dad would fall in love right away and things would move too fast. In my head, most of the women that would be in his "target audience" are those who have been divorced and didn't have a relationship like my parents had. That they were taken advantage of, didn't feel appreciated, or didn't get the support they needed.

When a stranger meets my dad, they will be able to tell instantly that he is the type of man that will be able to take care of him. But that's just who he is as a person. It bothered me that the thought of a woman wouldn't realize how lucky she was to have him in her life. And how lucky she was that we had an unfortunate event in our life that enabled her to be part of his. To say that I was going to be judgmental and critical of who he dated is an understatement.

I always felt protective of him because after my mom passed away, it was me that was there that took care of him. When he started dating, it felt like I was the parent and he was the kid. I wasn't sure if I was ready to let him go. And the feeling of him not "needing" me anymore was something I had a hard time with. It's funny because I can only imagine how he felt as I grew up and started doing things on my own.

And now he's 2 months away from getting married. And I finally am in a place where not only am I at acceptance with him and his new life, but happy for him as well. Debbie is a lovely woman who makes my dad happy. And I think I've "raised" my dad well enough to make good decisions about who he dates.


you have always been there for me. You know and have shared a lot of my pain. You forced me to play catch with you because you knew I wanted to be a better player (which I hated). And I know that you would do anything and everything for me .
I love you more than I could ever say out loud and very happy for and Debbie.

Happy Father's Day.

Thursday, February 20, 2014

You are my Sunshine, my only Sunshine!!! Brushes


my friend Sonnie is seeking advice on what to buy at Sephora with a giftcard she received and inspired me to do a post.

She was thinking about buying some brushes. Awesome! You'll be surprised what good brushes can do. But, not from Sephora.

Face Brushes

There are 3 types of brushes that are essential:
1. Foundation
2. Powder
3. Contour/Highlight/Blush

There are different varieties of these essential brushes depending on the look you are wanting to achieve, or the type of product your using, but we'll keep it simple.

1. Foundation

Real Techniques: Expert Face Brush
Ulta $9.00

This is probably my favorite brush for a full coverage look. It applies the color evenly, and buffs it into your skin for a natural finish. Great for liquid foundations, thick and thin.

Coastal Scents: Bionic Flat Top Buffer $6.95

This is one of my first foundation brushes and is great for beginners. It blends flawlessly and easily and gets the job done. Only $7, it's a steal.

2. Powder

Real Techniques: Powder Brush
Ulta $10

This brush is huge. This is great for setting your foundation with it's loose powder or mineral makeup. I also use this with bronzer for my overall complexion.

Sigma Beauty: F30 $24

Sigma brushes are amazing. They are exact dupes of Mac brushes and they also have expanded and created unique ones of their own. This is a dupe of a Mac 134 but for half the price. This paddle shaped brush is great for setting your foundation.

3. Contour/Highlight/Blush

Sigma Beauty: F50 $23

Duo fiber brushes are great because they are versatile. They work great with powders or liquids. You can use this to apply blush, or add highlighter. It's not the best for contour if you are using a larger brush but is great for your overall complexion and bronzer.

Coastal Scents: Classic Blush Angle Small Natural $4.95

Angled brushes are going to give you that "chiseled" look. Contouring is great for flat faces, or round faces such as mine. It gives it dimension and shape and angled brushes are dense enough to apply color but fluffy enough to blend.

Eye Brushes

Eye brushes, you can never have too many of them! Here are 4 essentials that you will need:
1. Flat shader
2. Blending
3. Crease
4. Pencil/detail
5. Eyeliner

1. Flat shader

Coastal Scents: Classic Shadow Medium Natural $2.49

Yes, only $2.49! A flat shader brush is for packing on color onto your lid. Brushes that are slightly tapered like this is also good to blend the edges.

2. Blending

Sigma Beauty: E40 $14

This brush is a dupe for a 224 brush by Mac. This is a MUST HAVE if you want a smokey look. The worst is seeing someone with dark colors that do not blend.....using this with eyeshadow or by itself is necessary. 

3. Crease

 Mac Cosmetics: 217 $24

This brush changed my life and is so amazing that I'm posting the original. The 217 brush is an oval shaped blending brush. It applies color and blends it out for a soft look. Of course they have these brushes on coastal scents or sigma, but if you are going to splurge on a higher end brush, this would be the one.

4. Pencil/detail

Sigma Beauty: E30 $12

Having a pencil brush is great for your lower lash line, inner corners, or for a precise line in the crease.

5. Liner

Coastal Scents: Classic Angled Liner Synthetic $1.95

You need a brush for eyeliner if you are using a gel/cream eyeliner. This is also for using a shadow as a liner and want to put a more precise line on your lower lash line. 


so we covered our basics for brushes. Now, what to do with that gift card?

Well, I'm a little tired from writing about brushes. I will be back another time to finish this thought.

Hope you learned something!

Until next time,