Today is your birthday (duh duh duh duh duh duh duh)
Hope you have a good one (da da da da da da)
I don't remember if it was duh or da a na
But I know how fond you were of birthday songs... that and your "kids are punny too" book. Oh dear, I hated when you would ask me for my opinion about your jokes because none of them were funny to me. But ironically enough I find myself acting like you more and more everyday. I feel bad for my future kids because I will embarrass them. Sometimes, in the car and One Direction is blasting on the radio, I catch myself AND Zack doing the pigeon. Never that I'd see the day.
Right now I'm having major tooth pain...mainly because I have a hole in my back tooth and a canker sore. I probably should get it pulled. Do you remember the last time I got my tooth pulled? You took me to the Dentist in Davenport and we stopped at the gas station beforehand and you spent FOREVER trying to find the big cookies. I told you that it was the Grandma's cookies that you were looking for but you wouldn't believe me. Then after 10 minutes you picked out the Grandma's cookies and said "this is what I was looking for!" Goodness.
To be completely honest, I don't think you would be able to handle 54. The stubbornness you had before would have probably grown exponentially by now. Zack tells me that I am very stubborn and ignorant, I guess I get that from you. However, I don't do the silent treatment. I'm very bad at that. I bet you that Zack wished I gave him the silent treatment because I do the complete opposite of silent!
We're living together and things have been great. I know you would have had a really hard time accepting that and you would've ignored me and dad for at least a month but I know you would eventually come around and be comfortable with it. I was always thankful that you got to meet Zack and that we're still together. I remember you told every single person you knew about him because you were probably scared I'd never date anyone. Freshmen year we came home because dad was sick and I wanted to help you take care of him. Us 3 went out to the Button Factory and I got onion straws as a meal which was a bad idea. The Button Factory is closed now.
As you know I graduated from college. I ended up with my B.S. in Kinesiology (BS indeed!) I'm still a little lost as to what I want to do from this moment on. I could really use your advice, but I know what you'd say. You'd say that I should do whatever it is that makes me happy (as long as it wasn't being a lazy bum living at home). I find that the issue I have is that there are so many options I have. There are a lot of different things that I would be good at and can't decide. I would have to go to grad school to get certain jobs I've considered but not sure if I want to go back to school for awhile. AND I SWEAR TO GOD TO THIS DAY I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU SAID YOU AND DAD WOULD PAY FOR GRAD SCHOOL IF I WENT. I know you did!!!!! We were at Target in Iowa City, so you and dad can stop trying to trick me into thinking you didn't.
Macky doo's birthday is coming up soon too. He's going to be 13! Can you believe it. I remember when we first got him....you told us there was a surprise for us at the bank. On the way there you pointed out a neat truck parked on the side of the road and we thought that was the surprise. Then we got to the bank and they had a big rocket on display and was disappointed because we thought that was the surprise. But then dad walked up to us with this little puppy with gold eyebrows. What a little runt he was. Even with his age he is still a puppy. They say that dogs take after their owners and I couldn't agree more. He is weird, VERY weird. Which I think he got from me you and dad.
When you were at home and we had visitors coming and going he was so quiet and not annoying at all.
Almost as if he knew something was going on. Then he somehow got passed the gate and ran upstairs right to your bed. He's a smart dog and he told me he misses sharing the couch with you.
He gets full reign of our new house. But surprisingly he is well behaved and we have a deck that is perfect for him to hang outside. I don't know if you'd like our neighborhood. It's pretty quiet and not much action. You and Carol wouldn't enjoy your "patio" as much because you'd just stare at the highway and have no one to talk about.
Jared's still Jared...enough said.
I guess I just wanted to catch up with you and write it down. I think the biggest surprise and difference about me since you've been gone is my obsession for makeup. I can only imagine how far your eyes would be rolling by now. I often think about what I would be like if you were still here. I probably wouldn't have spent hundreds of dollars on makeup and have a beauty channel/blog. But I'm sure I would've spent hundreds of dollars on something else...it's what I do best! And if it isn't obvious where I got my username from, I'll explain.
Jellena is Jenna with Ellen in the middle.
I came up with it sophomore year. Pretty creative, huh? And I still have my necklace I got from you for Christmas all those years ago. The one that's your heart with mine (how corny).
Well, I hope you had a good birthday and that you did something fun, maybe eat an oreo blizzard or two.
Love you and miss you everyday,